Christmas Break

Finally back at school. Haven't had a steady access to the internet during the break, which is an interesting experience. I'm actually sort of excited to be back. The break was well needed, though a little after a week I felt like I was accomplishing nothing.

Worries

I've been wondering recently why is it always that no matter how hard we try we are consistently worrying about something. Some sort of problem that arises in our lives that needs to be solved. When you finally solve that problem, another soon comes to take its place. And I thought about the short lived times in between the problems to try and understand why we consistently have them.

What are your options as to where you go when your on top of a mountain? Down. And, if you're on cloud 9 you're going to have to come down sometime. At least for me, when I'm at the top, it's a fast fall to the bottom. It's like not having a direction as to where to go next, or moving and not going anywhere. But it doesn't last long because something else comes up to worry about. So the mind tries to set itself in a middle ground; worrying, but not excessively. So it's kind of like the mind trying keep itself in a stable state. This always gives something to strive for (a goal), which gives a purpose for the things that we do or at least what we should do.

So thinking about worries and problems brought me to another question 'Do we strive to be perfect?' For some it may be a goal they have (and good luck with that). But in general, I don't believe so. I believe we strive to have a purpose. And I think our worries and problems that we have in life, give purpose. And if you have no problems or worries, then what are you striving for? If you've already reached your goal, well why the hell are you still here? And going back to striving to be perfect, if someone ever became perfect, then I'm sure they still try to find some purpose in their life, like helping others (Think God).

So I guess to sum up my thoughts, our problems give us goals, our goals give us a purpose, and that purpose gives a reason to live.

I actually spent some a good bit of time trying to figure a name for this blog and just ended up using the word of the day at Dictionary.com for my birthday this year, which so happened to be provenance. I liked it, so now it's the name of this blog.

I recall having a blog my freshman year where I only wrote in it once. If I remember correctly it was something about time. I don't remember the details though. Anyways, I'm actually going to try and write in this blog more than once. But we'll see how it goes.

I just finised my finals... first went ok, second went really well, and the third... we'll see. I'm excited to go home for Christmas break. I haven't been home for and long period of time since... well... last Christmas. So... yea, excited.