Now when I was first notified of this issue it caused a bit of thinking on my part. The sort of thinking that shakes the fabric of who you are. The issue left me feeling detached from not only myself but from my surroundings. The detachment I felt made me think about understanding the world.
To me, experience is key to this world. Without it you cannot understand. You can read a book and learn about something, but that doesn't mean you understand? You can observe others and figure you have a good idea what is going on, but without experience do you truly understand? You can know that something is sad and painful, but do you understand it?
I know that there is one thing in my life that has consisitently been on my mind. Something that I don't understand. That something is having someone to care about. Someone to link me to this world through their own. To experience the entire spectrum of emotions with. To understand how it feels to have your heart warmed, or even ripped out. And to find that person, well, it's a difficult task.
It is a difficult task and we're all looking for that. Don't forget that while you wait for her to come along, you have us, your friends.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you've been able to detach yourself from what has been going on but don't let it build up inside you. If you can't get away from it don't pent it all up inside. If you need to talk remember we're here for you.
It's not one of those things that builds up inside, it's one of those things that can be ignored through ignorance. And the reason I'm ignoring it is because the dust hasn't settled and I can't get a clear picture of it. So I'm just ignoring things that will only cause me more bother than need be.
ReplyDeletethis was a nice paragraph,
ReplyDelete"To me, experience is key to this world. Without it you cannot understand. You can read a book and learn about something, but that doesn't mean you understand? You can observe others and figure you have a good idea what is going on, but without experience do you truly understand? You can know that something is sad and painful, but do you understand it?"
hm, and at first i was going to say, not many things can completely be ignored through ignorance, but then you write, "So I'm just ignoring things that will only cause me more bother than need be." in which case i wonder, will ignoring [something] ever allow for the dust to clearly settle? I mean, doesn't it require active duty from at least one side of the conversation?
anywayyyy...i always wonder when roommates comment on one another's posts if they are in the same/other room. heh, but i guess this was during the summer so probably not, but it still would've been fun.